Deceased tenant next door

Recently a deceased tenant was found in apartment next door to my mine. This is an extremely distressing situation and I am unable to let go of replaying the images of a funeral service removing the body through the hallway to the elevator and the super foul odor. This has made my living situation unbearable. I am hoping the landlord may allow me to relocate to another property/unit but my lease is not over for 6 months. They covered one night at a hotel while they ozone the air and hired a cleaning crew. Nonetheless I am immensely obsessed the air is still hazardous and another tenant will be found next to me again! I am compulsively holding my breath, blowing air out my nostrils, keeping the window open then close, spraying air freshener, avoiding the frequency of passing through the shared hallway, not going in the elevator, repetitive looking at the shared wall and their door, not touching the shared wall. Obsessed haunted presence. Obsessed I will get sick and die breathing in the air of the decomposing body. Obsessed with death the fear of the unknowing, what if no one found me like the tenant (7 days), how I will die, when I will die, what happens after death, being buried alive or cremated alive! Fear it’s not in my control! Fear how others will die! When others die! Especially my dog!! Fear I won’t be able to cope when my dog dies!

genicrop09

Date posted: 4d ago

Sounds terrible 😔 I hope you will figure out what to do with your apartment. But I try to live with the rule 'Not to control things you can't control' because it's useless. However I think you and your dog will be okay, when my father died he spent three days being dead in the room (they did something to the corpse i don't know what was it) still some bacteria get to the air but we all stayed alive and our animals too, there were also a lots of people and everyone was okay after that.

genicrop09

Date posted: 4d ago

Not to confuse people but it was something religious like you should be buried in the specific day people said to me, I don't really remember it because of the grief

moon027097

Date posted: 4d ago

i see you and i hear you. this sounds like it is am incredibly stressful and heartbreaking situation. im sorry that I can't offer more, but i'm sending strength and healing your way.

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 6h ago

Experiencing something so disturbing right next door would be deeply upsetting for anyone. The way your mind is replaying images, focusing on contamination fears, and grappling with existential questions about death sounds overwhelming. These intense obsessions and the compulsive behaviors like avoidance and checking are characteristic of how OCD can manifest, creating a cycle that feels impossible to break. If you’re struggling and need more assistance, remember that help is available. Please don’t hesitate to reach out to us at NOCD to find out how we can support you. Also here are some helpful resources: https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/fear-of-afterlife-ocd https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/fear-of-funerals/ https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/fear-of-death-ocd

Mar_3

Date posted: 4d ago

Thank you for the messages. Appreciate it :)

Potato!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2d ago

I'm sorry for what you're going through, friend. This situation is distressing for anyone. You are strong for reaching out to community and being vulnerable. Unfortunately, OCD likes to get us when we're going through stressful situations like this. I suggest reaching out to your ERP therapist about this. Also, NOCD support groups have helped me a lot. You are not alone in the OCD struggle! <3 You're strong and badass for dealing with the OCD beast!

ConstantPain

Date posted: 10w ago

Dealing with a lot. Need support and company.

My last and almost life long theme/sub-theme largely subsided recently and my ocd felt like it wasn’t even an issue. Then I went on winter break from uni and being alone made my mind come up with a whole new topic to obsess over. TLDR on my fears, my advisor wouldn’t email me back for a while about signing up for classes so my mind started to worry “what if he doesn’t in time and you can’t enroll this semester and you lose this whole life you just built and all these new friends” So when that issue was resolved my mind found other scarier ways I could be uprooted from my current life and friends that I’ve grown so attached to. Then my mind remembered back when I was struggling with false memories and scrupulosity and I essentially made a post on a forum 2 and a half years ago saying I did something or was convinced I did something that I never actually did. Now I’ve been spiraling about someone finding it reporting me and I either get seen as a horrible person or arrested or something over something I never actually did but “admitted” to out of fear of going to hell. My mind won’t let it go and keeps finding new reasons for it to be “valid” “logical” or even inevitable. I feel like it’s just hanging over my head and I can never rest easy. Especially when I try to focus on my daily tasks or plan for the future I get this horrible flair up of “why plan for the future when this could come back in that future and you get uprooted from all of it” my mind won’t rest without certainty being uprooted won’t happen but certainty doesn’t exist, at least not with ocd. This sucks and I miss being care free.

Anonymous

Date posted: 7w ago

I am scared I might die within the next few days

I'm currently living through a massive health scare with really scary symptoms. I am scared I might have an aneurysm due to my symptoms but despite that the doctor's don't think it's urgent. I have some test scheduled but I will have to wait weeks for some of them. I don't know how to get through this knowing I could die any moment. I live in constant terror ever since those symptoms started. I can't function. Can anyone here please help me with this??? I don't know what to do?

learningtore...

Date posted: 4w ago

How do I get out of a Flare Up

Im having a OCD specifically contamination OCD flare up all month and I don’t want to feel this way going into March, I’ve thrown out clothes, towels, stayed up for hours doing compulsions, washed my hands till they crack and bleed, I have washing pilling up cause I’m so overwhelmed by all the extra things I’ve added cause I thought it was contaminated. It’s completely draining me to the point where I’ve become sleep deprived and are avoiding part of my home because they are deemed contaminated to me…I only moved in a few months ago, I had a roach problem and using baits and insecticides really messed with my ocd too. anyone have any tips or tricks to make this easier? I wasn’t doing this bad in January :( thankyou in advance :)

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