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@Sara Admire Could I please get some advice

@Anonymous2122 I can try :)

@Sara Admire I'm sorry I really need some help and someone to tell me I am okay

@Sara Admire I'm a young mom who is very distressed

@Sara Admire Please comment back please

@Anonymous2122 - Well, I can try my best to provide support- but I of course dont know everything going on.. are you scheduled or seeing a therapist through NOCD yet? I can tell you that you are in the right place for support and that things can get better the more you talk about it and work through it. We here at NOCD do our best to not provide reassurance as it makes us feel okay in the moment...but long term end up needing more and more... so we learn to practice uncertainty... things may or may not be... and its also okay to not be okay. "I may not feel okay right now AND I am trying... i am talking about my issues, I am using my supports, I am getting rest and taking care of myself" I believe in you!

@Sara Admire I have a therapist, yes. Did you read what happened? My daughter was laying across me and I had a thought to do what I did. Now I feel like a terrible mother and don't deserve to be her mom anymore. I'm honestly needing just one person, like you, to at least tell me I didn't do anything wrong to cause her harm. I don't want to be taken away from her.

Thank you so much for your response I'm trying to get through each day at a time and I will definelty try to practice self care

@Sara Admire Hey, I'm sorry I just really need some support this one time

@Sara Admire PLEASE

@Anonymous2122 Sorry the other messages of what you had written didn’t pop up right away! now that I’m able to see/read…. I am sorry you are feeling stuck. You may feel like a terrible mother right now and it sounds like there are a billion times you have been an awesome mom and will continue to be an amazing mother. This is absolutely your OCD trying to tell you negative things! And we aren’t listening to that today!

@Sara Admire Even if that really happened? The thought told me to move my elbow and hit her groin and I did that? Is that okay? I feel so guilty

@Anonymous2122 Even if it really happened. You’re allowed to feel guilty. It makes sense to feel uncomfortable….our intrusive thoughts love to stress us out and make us feel the absolute worst but it doesn’t mean you are.

@Sara Admire Thank you. I'm so scared I did something to harm my daughter. The thought told me to do it and I did it. Is that normal? Can OCD make you do that without thinking?

@Anonymous2122 POCD is a hell of a monster :/ and absolutely can make you think you’ve done the absolute worst thing when in reality you have not! The compulsion happens for a lot of people without always knowing it’s what they’re giving into. We also can’t control all our thoughts so absolutely can occur without you feeling like you know

@Sara Admire So giving into the thought wasn't wrong of me? I shouldn't turn myself in for this?

@Anonymous2122 Giving into your OCD doesn’t need to be looked as wrong or right- the OCD thoughts you experience are distressing and unwanted and it happens that ocd brain wins and we give into compulsions. That’s why you’re here and working through this! You’ve most likely had the thought “should I turn myself in” a few other times…..what has been the response you’ve received in the past when you’ve said that.

@Sara Admire It's always been "no", but I gave into this thought and I'm afraid I hurt my daughter.

@Anonymous2122 Fantastic! “no” is exactly what we need to use in this situation as well. You are so much more than your OCD ❤️ you got this, even on these really tough days! Don’t give up I know it sucks and is beyond unpleasant, I’ve worked with quite a few POCD clients and have seen changes/success/less fears and worries! It may be slow but it is very possible as long as you are willing to keep trying

@Sara Admire I'm just really down about this. Is this a normal response to an OCD thought? Did you honestly think I hurt my daughter?

Thank you so much 💓

I hope you feel better .we will get through this 🙏