Can someone direct death to my house (repost)

I don't think Jesus can help with this...I know they say "all things are possible through God..." but this...I doubt. And trust me, I've done the math I don't think he can help I had an existential crisis that made me question morals (where they are from and all...) normal question I know but that coupled with OCD and forced isolation really had me going down a dark rabbit hole. I replayed them and stressed and really it took away all my empathy, I here about things that should distress me and disgust me and they don't do that, they just leave me feeling empty and like I don't care. So I'm just a living and breathing rock with no empathy, weird and heartless thoughts that I'm getting so convinced are mine because all panic has left my brain and some how...God can help? I dont see how🤷🏼‍♀️ I'm okay with dying I just hope God isn't real and that there's reincarnation. I hope I'm born different, with no ocd and a happier child hood.

@mental Warrior hi!! Jesus can help you! He’s helped me! and He’s so real! I understand it’s hard, i’ve been dealing with OCD for years and it’s miserable. It still is, but the times that I seek God and just have the faith in Him, it’s so much easier. I’m relying on strength from my Creator who understands our thoughts more than we do. It sucks we have to go through things like this but it’s part of living in a sinful, broken world. We suffer now on earth, but Jesus promises us eternal life where there is so pain and no suffering, when we turn to Him. He also promises to help us, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest.” How cool that Jesus does want to help you if you allow Him to. He’ll never force you. It’s all your choice. But i promise you Jesus is the only way. Nothing else can heal you or help you. I have full faith that one day if it’s a part of Gods plan He will heal me, and if He doesn’t I know He’ll help me through the OCD and use it for good like He does with everything. He turns Broken into Beautiful. Jesus loves you. You got this!

@Jesuslovesyouu Amen to that, amen🙏🏾! See Jesus is the real deal and he can save you

@mental Warrior - Pleaase be alive

@mental Warrior - When I Fall - Katy Nicole Please listen to this.

I am not really a fan of God right now...I know it's not his fault but he could've just not made me to begin with because he certainly saw this coming

@mental Warrior - Hun. You've blessed me and you are wonderful. Honestly, I can't imagine life without you. <3

@🖤SavageGirl🖤 I can say the same to you!😭✨

@mental Warrior - Awwww

@🖤SavageGirl🖤 I wish i had the loving heart that you seem to😭😭 that's one thing OCD has shaped me for yk, I lost my empathy just like that and all my life that's the one thing I had liked about myself the most and without empathy for those around me and stuff I just feel empty, I wish I knew then that life is so full because of the people we meet and that are gifted to us because right now, I really can't feel much and it's draining! It's even worse because my siblings love me so much and I do too it's just clouded with so much right now sometimes I feel like I don't and sometimes I think maybe I should just live like that yk, with no love for people but that just scares me. I want to live and be loved, I want to have the same relationship with my siblings that I had initially but it feels like it's gone for good I won't lie

@mental Warrior - You do have empathy! It's hard, I believe, because you're scarede of hurting them or getting hurt.

@🖤SavageGirl🖤 Hey, sorry I've been AWOL I'm back though

@🖤SavageGirl🖤 Also about the email, I don't know if I'm comfortable with that anymore so yeah, I'll still have to think about it

@mental Warrior - No problem <3 I won't pressure you, alright? I'm 18 now!!!

@🖤SavageGirl🖤 Yay! When was your birthday?? And I got so excited when I saw your message OMG! Your timing was also great lol I just finished an assignment legit rn

@mental Warrior - >< March 20th!! Finished my State Constitution test.

@🖤SavageGirl🖤 Happy belated!💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕 Idk what a state constitution test is lol, I'm South African so yah maybe that's why I've never heard of that

@mental Warrior - Thank you, AND THAT'S AMAZING!!!!!! It's for Illinois. I live in the great ol' united states *rolls eyes*. It's not as great as it's cracked up to be. The US sucks

@🖤SavageGirl🖤 Oh, I learned something new today 🙃 I will have to take your word for it Bibi would like to visit the place I won't lie, I'd love to see New York and Salt Lake City and probably a few other cities there but those two the most,and as for South Africa...maybe I'm just biased but I think it's an underrated place😂😭🤷🏼‍♀️ being South African is a vibe, it's not a perfect place of course and it is definitely not where I want to spend the rest of my life but I love it here for the most part ngl, do you know anything about it?

@mental Warrior - A little bit, half my church is South African ><

@mental Warrior - Only thing is if you go to New York City, any of California, or Chicago you need to be extremely careful. Super high m*rder and r*pe rate.

@🖤SavageGirl🖤 Ohh cool! I had no idea Illinois had that many South Africans wth!?

@🖤SavageGirl🖤 Yikes...noted

@mental Warrior - Yup!! Many people from Haiti and Nigeria too in my area. Illinois is expensive though TwT The taxes are the highest in the US

@mental Warrior - I can educate on America, if you'd like. I hate the crime rate.... high controlled substance ab*se rate too

@🖤SavageGirl🖤 Hectic I just searched tge city up though OMW, it looks nice! I've definitely heard of it but I never sat down and did some research on it fr

@🖤SavageGirl🖤 Dang nothing positive to say?😭

@mental Warrior - Not much, sadly. It's pretty in some places, but I gave up on 95% of the US human population.

@🖤SavageGirl🖤 Hurt people, hurt people.

@mental Warrior - There's a ton of hurt people here. May seem like the perfect "dream," but it's almost like a civilian war zone in some places.

@🖤SavageGirl🖤 Here in SA as well, it's like an internal hate that is projected outwardly to everyone around them yk, no sense of community love at all at times but yeah ...that's most of the world sadly But what's good about Illinois?

@mental Warrior - Southern Illinois is beautiful. Smaller communities, less crime, and so much wilderness. Northern Illinois is mostly buildings, streets, and crime.

@mental Warrior - I'd rather be in Kentucky. It's beautiful, hilly, and there's so many trees. I just wish that we didn't have to trade beauty and safety for healthcare, since the more rural you get, the farther hospitals and whatnot are.

@mental Warrior - Or live in Japan. My honey is taking me to Japan for our honeymoon

@mental Warrior - I wish I could be in the military too, but I would be one of the LAST people they would take because of my mental and physical disorders. TwT

@🖤SavageGirl🖤 Oh I see

@🖤SavageGirl🖤 Yeah that isn't a fair trade😔

@🖤SavageGirl🖤 That's amazing!! I'm happy for you enjoy!!

@🖤SavageGirl🖤 Why would you want to? (Out of curiosity) It's always been something that scares me ngl