- Date posted
- 20w
Cutting and self harm
Does anybody else get the indescribable urge to cut yourself, you don’t want to but you feel like you have too.
Does anybody else get the indescribable urge to cut yourself, you don’t want to but you feel like you have too.
hey! i’ve dealt with self harm for years and i’m recently a year clean. sometimes OCD can obsess over frequent behavior or harmful behavior and it’s hard to navigate. but it’s important to talk about these things and distract yourself! i’m always here if you need someone.
Lately I’ve been leaving scratch marks on my hand fingers, to the point the scars are permanent
i have suicidal ocd and i get these same thoughts
This was exactly how I first heard I might have OCD. I thought it was the urge to tic (I have Tourette's). So I mentioned it in a Tourette's forum on FB. Obvs lots of people have OCD in a Tourette's forum and they just started talking like it went without saying that I already knew. Not long after that my mental health team started discussing OCD with me and things have gone from there. At the time I just stayed in my room and away from the kitchen but I don't know what I would do today. I'd explore those thoughts and urges in whatever small way I could manage I guess. That is a start.
I feel the same sometimes or when I'm really stressed and having an episode I'll scratch my arm till I bleed. Having certain stress relief toys or Fidget Toys can help a little. I also have dermatillomania so it also helps to prevent picking at my skin or creating new wounds. Swapping one self harming activity for something less harmful is a step in the right direction but I know it can be hard.
Has anyone ever just felt weird? It’s hard to explain but I just feel weird lately. I usually suffer with harm OCD and I feel like lately I’m not reacting to things I normally would. There’s certain things that will trigger me a little but then other times (like over the last few days) it’s like I feel nothing. I’ll get thoughts and because I don’t feel the physical sensation in my chest or get very emotional like I normally would it’s weird to me. Does this mean I’m liking the thoughts now? Or like I’m comfortable with those actions happening? I’m so confused. Has anyone ever gone through this?
There are times my harm ocd has me convinced that my feelings of self harm or suicide and harm are real and that any moment I could commit the act on myself or my family. Is there anyone who can chime in on this. I feel like all the time I want to leave run away or avoid my family because of these thoughts. Like I shouldn’t be around my children and I don’t trust myself.
I am struggling right now with intrusive harm urges. They feel real and it feels like I am going to act any second. It feels like I have to hold myself back, which is a scary thoughts. I am trying so hard not to compulse, but does anyone have tips on what they do in these situations?
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