Catlove9
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- 50w
Is this ever going to end?
I make progress, and then OCD comes at me a different way. It makes me sick to my stomach. It’s giving me new feelings and I can’t tell if it’s my OCD or me and I’m really scared.
issphra 🫶🏻issphra 🫶🏻
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- 50w
I’m going through this too. It’s hard, you’re not alone 🩷 OCD is a bitch
Catlove9Catlove9
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- 50w
@isshpra 🫶🏻 It really is. Like right now I don’t even know what I’m feeling. All I know is it’s scary and I want it to stop. But I don’t even know what it is!
issphra 🫶🏻issphra 🫶🏻
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- 50w
@Catlove9 omg are you me?? Because literally SAME. I just feel so scared and I don’t even understand why and it’s like my OCD is trying to grasp anything to explain the feeling
Catlove9Catlove9
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- 50w
@isshpra 🫶🏻 That’s exactly how I feel! And it keeps going around and around. It just feels like I’m not even here. Which makes no sense.
issphra 🫶🏻issphra 🫶🏻
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- 50w
@Catlove9 I’m sorry you’re going through this too, it’s really tough honestly. I wish we didn’t have to live like this anymore
Catlove9Catlove9
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- 50w
@isshpra 🫶🏻 Me too. Right now it’s really hard because I feel like I can’t even explain it. I’m sorry you’re going through this.
sethnauticalsethnautical
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- 50w
Have been struggling a lot lately, too. Just when you think you’re finally out of it, it comes back in a different way. We just have to fight harder than everyone else, but I think it makes us more badass that we have conquered so much 💪
Catlove9Catlove9
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- 50w
@sethnautical Hahaha I do agree with that. But you’re right. It’s always different. For me, it’s always a different feeling or theme.
SliceySlicey
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- 50w
It’s so exhausting, sickening and scary. I almost don’t like having good days sometimes because I know the bad days will be back soon.
Catlove9Catlove9
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- 50w
@Slicey Yes! And when am I having a good day, it’s like I check to see when it will end.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 50w
I’m really struggling today too you’re not alone
Catlove9Catlove9
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- 50w
@Anonymous Thank you for saying that ❤️
Glitchgkojdyu!Glitchgkojdyu!
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- 50w
Yes I dissociate a lot because of my OCD. It scared me so much I was shaking like rapidly then tensed so much my head got stuck in an owl position and I had to go hospital. Was messed up
Catlove9Catlove9
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- 50w
@Glitchgkojdyu! Omg. I hope you’re okay! I’ve been dissociating A LOT lately as well. I feel so spaced out and so out of it. I wish I could explain it better because it feels so weird.
JazzyJez86JazzyJez86
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 50w
This recently happened to me, and I connected it with the fact that my period was about to start (and it lessens so much once I actually get my period). My therapist explained that the OCD will latch on to new things because it is desperately trying to find meaning out of nothing and drag you back into the anxiety cycle to get you to do a compulsion. It's definitely not you, it's OCD! But you have to tell yourself, "Maybe it is OCD, maybe it's me, there's no way I can know for sure. I'm going to live in the discomfort and uncertainty of not knowing." That disarms the neverending OCD quest to try to get you to engage with it's stupid questions. Hang in there!
Catlove9Catlove9
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- 50w
@JazzyJez86 Thank you! This is helpful.
Catlove9Catlove9
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- 50w
@JazzyJez86 Also, how many days before your period did it start feeling like that?
JazzyJez86JazzyJez86
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 50w
@Catlove9 I’d say like 3-5ish? It’s super annoying but does help to know that stress and hormones can aggravate it 😵💫 I felt like I was losing progress and my therapist had to remind me I’ve only been doing ERP for a little over two months, it’s normal for new things to come up and it can happen years apart too. It will get better!
Catlove9Catlove9
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- 50w
@JazzyJez86 Thank you! This makes sense. Mine is due and the last few days have been hell!
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- 13w
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