- Date posted
- 1y
This experience has been so incredibly stressful.
Knowing that I have to pay money for a service that is causing me more problems than actually helping me is infuriating.
Knowing that I have to pay money for a service that is causing me more problems than actually helping me is infuriating.
I was matched with an NOCD therapist I found horrible. We talked a bit about my issues and then she got up and closed the door, because the other people there were to loud. I was shocked, therapy is confidential the door should have been closed from the start. Then she asked me about my faith, which I found very odd. I told her, that I'm an atheist and she said "Catholic?" I again said, that I'm an atheist and the look on her face said it all. Additionally, I felt very uncomfortable talking to her, so I contacted NOCD and asked them to match me with another therapist and they did. Lourdes De Las Heras Kuhn is one of the best therapists I ever had. I can highly recommend her.
Does she do erp and pocd and health ocd
@π¦π€π«§ββ΄ππΆπβ―β―π«§π€π¦ Well, I assume all ERP specialized do every OCD subtypes. As an example, she told me about an ERP exercise she did with another patient of hers, it was with regards to Contamination, or Health Corncern OCD.
@ZoΓ«_84 I can't sleep
@π¦π€π«§ββ΄ππΆπβ―β―π«§π€π¦ I'm sorry
@π¦π€π«§ββ΄ππΆπβ―β―π«§π€π¦ Want to know what helps me sleep?
@ZoΓ«_84 I'm not trying to rant again but I feel like the attraction I'd getting a little too real with my pocd and that's a major problem beacuse I keep thinking about this scinarios with younger people in it and it's scaring me I don't even feel fazed by it im littlerly about to cry en beacuse it won't go away
@π¦π€π«§ββ΄ππΆπβ―β―π«§π€π¦ The more you focus on your intrusions - no matter, if they pop up as thoughts, images, emotions, sensations, etc. - the more real they feel. Try to take a step back and breathe calmly.
@π¦π€π«§ββ΄ππΆπβ―β―π«§π€π¦ Is this what does beacuse everytime I have to check and check to see if I'm attracted to this one younger person that's always popping up in my mind like from a TV show it's so scary it's like this just started happening I've always imagined movie scenes were younger people were in it but I didn't think anything of it and I would be like ok but this keeps popping up in mybhead now I keep trying to think of men but it's not working .....it's from the karate movie I new I shouldn't have watched it like..... I'm scared beacuse I wake up with anxiety in my chest evertime the character pops up what the hell does this mean
@ZoΓ«_84 Like I feel numb I don't feel disgusted I'm trying to sleep and it's scaring me this is not normal
@ZoΓ«_84 Like why do I keep thinking about this so much I don't want to but but it keeps popping up i wasn't even focused on this before and now I am it's disturbing......idk what to do.
@π¦π€π«§ββ΄ππΆπβ―β―π«§π€π¦ Check if you are attracted to a minor is making your OCD worse, trust me. I have worried about it so much, when POCD started, that my mind never got a minute of rest.
@ZoΓ«_84 This is is still ocd right beacuse the lingering feeling and anxiety will not go away
@ZoΓ«_84 Like did you actually think you were attracted like you got anxiety in your chest and you felt like it would no go away I was trying to sleep but I could literally feel my heart pounding
@π¦π€π«§ββ΄ππΆπβ―β―π«§π€π¦ Like I've always been attracted to men why do i feel it in my chest so strongly I have knots in my stomach and like anxiety tingly feeling like when I was watching the movie didn't feel anything I guess it just got worse like you can't just become attracted to something itbhas to be ocd
@π¦π€π«§ββ΄ππΆπβ―β―π«§π€π¦ It keeps popping up, because you don't want it to pop up. OCD brings up disturbing intrusions and by our reaction to them, we either teach our brain, that the intrusions are important, or that they are not relevant. Worrying about them, checking, ruminating, seeking for reassurance, trying to push the thoughts away tells our brain "Thanks for bringing it up! These intrusions are of utmost importance!!!" and as a result, the OCD brain brings the intrusions up more. The more we give meaning to the intrusions, the more our brain focuses on them, creating a vicious cycle. Reacting calmly and thinking "Well, maybe I find that character/actor attractive, maybe not. Who knows." teaches your brain, that the intrusions are neither relevant, nor dangerous, therefore it will bring them up less.
@π¦π€π«§ββ΄ππΆπβ―β―π«§π€π¦ You are asking for reassurance, which we are not supposed to give one another. What I can tell you though is, that doubting that what we suffer from is very common in OCD. It's 9 a.m. here, I have to start my day. Please try and get some rest.
Does Lourdes des Las heras kuhn take ambetter and cignma or sunshine health what type of insurance does she take my mom told me to ask you because I don't think I can't have her if she doesn't take that insurance
@ZoΓ«_84 I've already booked a call with her tommarow at 5:00
@π¦π€π«§ββ΄ππΆπβ―β―π«§π€π¦ I don't know. As I'm not from the US, I paid out of pocket. I suggest you contact NOCD ask them, if they take your insurance and, if Lourdes has a vacancy.
Nobody has even called me π I booked a call with them like almost 4 or 5 times already
@π¦π€π«§ββ΄ππΆπβ―β―π«§π€π¦ Thatβs not okay at all. I had my first intake today, and it was one of the worst appointments that Iβve had.
@I am soup A lady just called me and recommended me a group of therapists that specializes in pocd and ERP so that's good do you know of any therapists that do the pocd themes and self harm and health themes I tried looking on the app and it said most therapists just specializes in anxiety depression and other things.
@π¦π€π«§ββ΄ππΆπβ―β―π«§π€π¦ I really had to search through their list to find somebody who I thought I could connect with. Unfortunately, you just have to really look at them all.
Does anyone else find it odd that we are told we are βcoveredβ and then six months later get bills for $800 + because we werenβt actually covered fully? If I had any idea earlier, I would have stopped. Nope, Iβm told Iβm covered and appointments are forced on me weekly, only to find out that the amount Iβm required to pay with insurance is more than I paid out of pocket? Please confirm with your insurance carrier to avoid this horrible discovery in the middle of an economic crisis.
Has anyone else had a rough start? Iβm 4 sessions in and have had no actual ERP work happen, I have 2 different therapists because none have availability to meet 2 times a week. Both those therapists are not available for the next 2 weeks so now Iβm going to see a new 3rd one. Each time Iβve seen a new therapist I feel like the whole first session is spent with them re explaining everything. Iβm paying for this out of pocket because they donβt accept Tricare which is my insurance as a Retired Marine. So Iβm 960 in, and honestly feel worse than when I started. I get zero suggestions on what to do between sessions and feel so incomplete after my session finishes. I feel like Iβve gotten more help asking chat gpt questions on EPR and how to deal with ROCD than I do in my sessions . Does anyone have any insight or helpful advice here?
I'm just venting, but everything is feeling so overwhelming lately. Every day, I still find myself checking on my ex. I know it sounds obsessive, but itβs not coming from a weird or stalkerish place. It just feels like I never got closure, and Iβm stuck in this loop. I read that βclosure is a choice, not a conversation,β and I try to believe thatβbut part of me still needs to know what heβs doing, like it gives me some weird sense of closure, even if itβs just temporary. And I hate that Iβm like this. On top of that, Iβve been wanting to see my Pap, who is in the hospital in pretty severe condition but I never have time because Iβm always working. My job is stressful. I try so hard, but my grooms donβt turn out the way I want, and I just feel like Iβm failing. Then there's my financial situationβmy car payment is $713 a month, plus insurance and other bills. I canβt save at all. Thankfully my mom pays the rent, but she constantly holds it over me and threatens to kick me out. Itβs never felt stable at home, and now itβs worse. Lately, my childhood trauma is resurfacing, and itβs affecting everythingβmy friendships, any chance of a relationship, even my bond with my pets. I feel like Iβm falling apart, and when I finally get in bed at night, I just feel hopeless. I look around and see people I went to school with thriving, and I feel so far behind. I used to feel ahead because I was already handling adult responsibilities, but now it feels like Iβm stuck while everyone else is moving forward. Iβm losing control of my emotionsβrandomly lashing out, struggling with angerβand I canβt afford therapy or even regular doctor visits. Sometimes I canβt even afford groceries, and itβs frustrating because I work hard and still feel like Iβm drowning. I just want a simple, peaceful life: a modest home, a normal car, a stable routine. I want a support system. I want to feel connected like my friends Jessica and Ashley, but I donβt. Itβs just me, but itβs still lonely. It feels like no matter how hard I try, I canβt get anything right. Like Iβm always doing something wrong in someoneβs eyes, and I have no one to turn to for help.
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