- Date posted
- 26w ago
Need for Certainty
Hey guys. Just a reminder that regardless of the subtype, our need for certainty is the enemy. I hope you guys are doing okay today. Any victories or grievances that need to be shared?
Hey guys. Just a reminder that regardless of the subtype, our need for certainty is the enemy. I hope you guys are doing okay today. Any victories or grievances that need to be shared?
This is such a good post thank you so much for this reminde
Yeah, very true I'm currently in a very reassurance-seeking mood. My brain has me pretty much convinced that I'm a zoophile, or becoming one, and it wants me to run through recent and past events and like all of my beliefs to see if I am. I'm doing pretty good at ignoring it, but it just sucks to be in that anxiousness cuz it really wants me to be sure I'm a good person, and it wants me to find explanations for things in the past that I don't have clarity on
The reminder is right on time thanks đ.I have been dealing with an important issue over the weekend making my pros and cons list mainly between 2 choices to resolution of a problem I have to decide on . And you are right in spite of the choice or the outcome , you can be certain or sure and it is best to just make your peace âźïž with that and welcome the outcome in the end as a learning experience.
Typo missed the word canât
Thank you for that reminder, a victory that I have had is that month ago I had trouble even stopping rumination at all, troubles leaving the house, being present now I can go 30 minutes with ruminating and bring present in the moment
I have come so far in my therapy and days like today feel like Iâm just still buried in OCD. Sometimes it is so insidious and I donât realize Iâm in a loop. Once I do realize it, itâs hard to get out. I thought sharing here may help, as I never have, but I know you guys will understand. Itâs so hard to decipher between regular anxiety and obsessions and compulsions. It has all just become one big ball of panic. Anyway, Iâm just struggling today - so thanks for listening.
My last and almost life long theme/sub-theme largely subsided recently and my ocd felt like it wasnât even an issue. Then I went on winter break from uni and being alone made my mind come up with a whole new topic to obsess over. TLDR on my fears, my advisor wouldnât email me back for a while about signing up for classes so my mind started to worry âwhat if he doesnât in time and you canât enroll this semester and you lose this whole life you just built and all these new friendsâ So when that issue was resolved my mind found other scarier ways I could be uprooted from my current life and friends that Iâve grown so attached to. Then my mind remembered back when I was struggling with false memories and scrupulosity and I essentially made a post on a forum 2 and a half years ago saying I did something or was convinced I did something that I never actually did. Now Iâve been spiraling about someone finding it reporting me and I either get seen as a horrible person or arrested or something over something I never actually did but âadmittedâ to out of fear of going to hell. My mind wonât let it go and keeps finding new reasons for it to be âvalidâ âlogicalâ or even inevitable. I feel like itâs just hanging over my head and I can never rest easy. Especially when I try to focus on my daily tasks or plan for the future I get this horrible flair up of âwhy plan for the future when this could come back in that future and you get uprooted from all of itâ my mind wonât rest without certainty being uprooted wonât happen but certainty doesnât exist, at least not with ocd. This sucks and I miss being care free.
I was going to ask for advice and vent after i just had an episode but reading through everyones post on here. I can see that everyone is collectively struggling at the moment and i think we need to utilize this community for more than just sharing our sadness. Nothing is wrong with venting of course but i feel like there isnt enough positive energy here to encourage everyone to keep going. I know asking for reassure feels like a must sometimes and trust me everyone has asked for it, it was a heavy compulsion of mine. But reassure is not what you need. It will make it worse everyone please trust me. Instead of letting out mind win we must support each other, understand our struggles but also share out wins. I feel like we dont use this community enough for finding friendship among us or spreading enough happiness. OCD Is not a happy disorder but seeing that everyone here is just here either hating on someone, people being too afraid to ask for help or no one reading peoples post. This place isnt just for our negative thoughts and events to fester we need to support each other here too! Ask for help, comment on peoples post with love everyone is struggling. In this community we should help pull each other out from dark places not let them stay there. I hope everyone who is going through it right has a better night/day/afternoon. Youâre loved deeply your not a monster, your not evil, your not dirty, your not a heretic your Nothing your thoughts tell you are. Peace to youđ€đ€đ€đ€
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