I am so scared and alone.

Hi everyone. So recently I have been feeling so scared and paranoid of going crazy. I am terrified of i will go crazy and turn schizo. I’m so hyper aware of everything. My mind convinces me that I will end up like this but I really don’t want to.It’s my biggest fear and I think abt it almost everyday and I can’t handle it anymore. I just want to be ok. I have told my parents this and they say it’s all in my head and just laugh at me. I know it’s in my head but I physically feel sick to my stomach being constantly scared. Please someone help me please please. Thank you.

Username: airotcivdairotcivd

Date posted: 15w ago

I know exactly how you feel! I’ve experienced this fear myself. What helped me was my therapist telling me it was basically impossible because I had no genetic predisposition and even if I did have someone in my family experience this, it would be too far removed to affect me. I’ve experienced the hyper aware sensations and fixations. I started ignoring them and that seemed to help. I know how scary and difficult it is, but keep reminding yourself you are safe and nothing like that will happen to you. You have to train your brain not to be afraid of the impossible and that will take time. Sending love

Username: alondrahuamanalondrahuaman

Date posted: 15w ago

@airotcivd Thank you so much, whoever you are really. I’m crying right now because I feel hope and feel heard. Thank you really. God bless you. 🫶🏼

Username: hanysm@gmail.comhanysm@gmail...

Date posted: 15w ago

Relax... use some ice on your chest... do the 5-4-3-2-1 grounding...identify 5 things you can see around you, 4 things you can hear, 3 things you can touch, 2 you can smell, 1 thing to taste....

Username: Ocd&me09Ocd&me09

Date posted: 15w ago

I’ve had this same theme, I used the “maybe I schizo maybe im not” you are not alone.

Username: Anon 2414Anon 2414

Date posted: 15w ago

Hi Alondra, don’t worry friend I am on the same boat as you. In the beginning it was so scary because this developed out of no for me. It’s like a switch that went off in my brain. Which convinced me I was slowly going insane sending me into literal panic attacks because of how hyper aware I was of everything. I was even hyper aware of my own thinking process, it’s like I would catch myself mid thought and become scared because I was now aware of my own existence(a conscious being) if that makes a sense at all?? which could actually be the reason why my DP/DR got worse now that i think about it. Nonetheless, I still unreal sometimes, as if I’m an alien that got dropped off on in a human body just fearfully aware of all bodily functions. It’s a nasty sensation but what’s helped me is just accepting it and letting it make its way out of my body. Now the flare ups only last a few minutes and the anxiety is kept at bay for the most part. So yeah it just takes some practice but it will become easier with time.

Username: Livi_luwho426

Date posted: 25w ago

I’m so scared of everything .

So many thoughts are coming into my head right now I don’t know how to think. I don’t even know how I am going to put this into words on here I just don’t know what to do . I am so scared of throwing up it’s so hard to explain . Everybody tells me “well no likes getting sick” but they don’t get it. It’s not just that, I am scared about getting any major illness and my mind keeps making me think that everything will give me food poisoning or a stomach bug if I am not careful or if I don’t check my temperature ten times in a row . I have to wash every produce throughly if I don’t I will do it again. And it sucks . Every time my stomach hurts I think that I will get sick. I barely eat and sleep because I am so scared . I am scared to sleep because I genuinely think that “anything can happen while I am asleep” so even if I take sleep medication my mind makes me stay awake out of fear. I just want to feel normal . I can never eat out without doing research of the place I am eating at and even after that it doesn’t help. I always feel worried that I will get sick on an important date just because that day is important like Halloween or an upcoming concert or hanging out with friends , so now I just mainly stay at home … but it hurts me because i want to live ( it's ironic because Liv is my name) so badly . my dream is to someday go on a Europe trip but i can hardly leave my state without thinking that something bad will happen to me . its getting unbearable at times . I wonder what it would feel like to not be completely burdened by anxiety and horribly disgusting thoughts every second of my life. And if you're wondering why I haven't had any medication prescribed to me is because I am also scared about taking any medication . I just feel helpless and it's my own fault . And I know I am holding myself back at times but I just don't know how to stop being scared and how to stop worrying about every aspect of my life . It's going to drive me insane .

Username: asiamikaa

Date posted: 22w ago

idk how to go about this

Hi im 15 and my name is Asia and I have a really bad fear of drugs I think their everywhere and on everything and I keep convincing myself I did them and I always tell myself I took something dangerous like cocaine or worse it happens everyday when I eat or drink something when I’m around certain people or places I get these thoughts and when I get the thought I took something I start to feel “weird” like my body starts reacting and I automatically think “I’m dying” so I call 911 and I feel like I HAVE to call or else something horrible is gonna happen if I don’t my whole perspective on life is miserable and scary because of this I wanna feel like myself again and not get these scary thoughts it’s literally ruining everything for me I don’t like hearing ppl talk abt drugs or anything that has to do with it or I start telling myself it’s happening to me or that I took something

Username: landonw

Date posted: 14w ago

What’s Going On?

Is this my life now? A loop of fears and panic? Freshman year.. two years ago is when all this started. When I began my journey with this debilitating and scary disorder. For a while I felt like everything was okay. Like things were getting better. But tonight it’s getting so bad. I’m shaking, the thoughts are literally making my body enter fight or flight. The feelings.. the thoughts it all feels so real. It makes me question every aspect of who I am.. Is this forever? Will this be my life? If it is, that sounds like pain.. I constantly check myself.. which ain’t realize might be a compulsion. But I wonder, am I lying to myself? But then again I wouldn’t fear it so much if what I felt was true. I try to stay calm, to not fight the thought but let it pass. But it only grows in power. It’s been giving me these fake feelings. Things in which i’d never felt before. I just want to be okay. And I wonder if that’s even possible anymore. All I know is that I have my family, my Mom, everyone who loves me dearly. Please anyone… I don’t want to beg but if you could give me some motivation or positive words i’d love that.

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