Vent about HARM ocd pls reply. 👍🏻

Hello, I think it’s fairly obvious at the moment I am struggling with terrible harm related intrusive thoughts / harm ocd. I feel so distressed and anxious about these horrendous thoughts its to the point I’m crying out of panic or avoiding anything that may cause harm, but the thing is i have this horrible like “intrusive feeling” throughout my body that feels really strong despite my distress to the thoughts I just have this feeling of what if i snap throughout my body. I also feel whats severely effecting me is that if i did it like “What if I actually did it” “No but what if i did” “Anyone is capable of it” and then the feeling gets worse and stronger and it makes me even more anxious. I know it is Harm OCD but i feel so distressed so anxious even to the point im waking up in the middle of the night with horrid thoughts that distress me and i find it hard to sleep due to the feeling / thoughts. If anyone can relate to this I really hope you can reply, offering advice or sharing your experience because the worst part of Ocd is feeling abnormal and alone and this is what I am feeling and its hurting me so badly. I feel low , exhausted. 💕

ivrec

Date posted: 34w ago

You definitely have a lot to vent about. I have had harm OCD before much was know about OCD. I guess deep down inside I knew that I would not act on any of these thoughts but the fact that they kept coming up and the anxiety and guilt I had totally sucked. The “what if” thoughts are definitely OCD trying to keep you in the loop of trying to figure out if there is any validity to the thoughts. There is not. Avoiding things that triggers the thoughts makes your brain think these thoughts are important, they are not. Please get as much information on harm OCD to educate yourself on how to avoid making the symptoms worse. These thoughts bother you because you don’t like them and really who would. Most people who get an intrusive thought can just blow it off as untrue garbage and go about their day. Taking these thoughts and the anxiety they bring as important makes them stick. A good thing to do is to learn some techniques to relax and be focused in the present instead of always in your mind. You are not alone and you can see past the OCD tricks with practice.

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 34w ago

Carol, everything you're experiencing us textbook harm OCD. You are not alone. The good news is it's treatable. You didn't mention if you ate in therapy, but if you're not, please consider into getting into therapy with a trained OCD therapist who uses ERP therapy. You CAN recover. NOCD has a lot of good OCD therapists affiliated with them. Why not check it out.

Hannahmul

Date posted: 34w ago

You are not alone, I genuinely feel like I could have written this! I think the best thing you can do in low points like this is remember that you’ve had all these thoughts before and survived. And to carry on living life as if you don’t have OCD. Easier said than done I know! But getting the little things in order (good routine, spending time with friends and family, exercise etc) really does help. Sending you all the positive vibes! ❤️

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 34w ago

Nathan Peterson has some good Harm OCD videos. The one below is called “What if I Snap?” https://youtu.be/3aOjh_CPydc?si=jCtgiz3XCNFVufGP I’ll post another one also

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 34w ago

https://youtu.be/UHCtK_KWiSE?si=DtvvcAZTZb5GTCaY

kittylady96

Date posted: 21w ago

Ppl with harm ocd do you get this feeling?

My head feels weird all the time, it feels like I have a tight headband around it squeezing , like heaviness and a really weird feeling, literally feels something is wrong inside, I also feel spaced out and this feeling of going literally crazy at certain moments of the day and the anxiety spikes. The thoughts are always there 24/7 even in the back of my mind, nothign I do makes these feelings and thoughts go away which is extremely scary. I can’t go on like this, wish I woke up tomorrow and OCD didn’t exist anymore. Do you guys also feel like this? 😫

carol.xxx

Date posted: 16w ago

flare up please respond

Hey guys, I am having the worst HARM OCD episode I have had in a while. I am having disgusting, awful intrusive thoughts about harming others. It feels so real. It feels as if I am about to get up and just do it. The worst bit about it all Is I know I feel distressed and panicked. But where the thoughts are actually happening ( in my head) doesnt feel this feeling. This is making it feel worse as it really does feel like Im just going to do it. I am crying my eyes out because I know im petrified and dont want to hurt anyone im so scared. I have this terrible intrusive feeling in my that feels like its justifying the thoughts. Please can someone talk as I am scared Im crying I dont want know what to do I want this feeling gone I am so scared. I tell myself Id kill myself before hurting anyone else, but would i ? What if I actually do want to kill Please respond Im so scared

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andrea_sam730

Date posted: 15w ago

Self pleasure and intrusive thoughts :/

I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh

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