I watched a utube video by an ocd expert and he said that on 9-11 he had patients come in and talk to him about their themes and they seemed barely concerned about what was happening. I have noticed this in myself and feel so bad and selfish when I am sooo focused on my own fears that I am not really connecting to loved ones and their needs like I used to. I know it's not how I used to be and I hate it
Give yourself some understanding. You need to get yourself better before you can take on other people's problems. I understand the feeling, as I have felt that way too, but we are allowed to repair ourselves, even if we need to block out some amount of the world to do it.
Itās hard cuz weāre so self consumed by OCD. I think thatās where our values are important to guide us. But alsoā¦ every day feels like a disaster to us, Iām not surprised they were focused on themselves? š
This is true.... Look what we accomplish when there's freaking smoke alarms going off in our head all day long. We are actually really brave and strong if you think about it like that. I just spent an hour at Walmart, got my shopping done, smiling, all while being fairly freaked out on the inside
Iāve been dealing with this harm theme for almost four months now, and well obviously life hasnāt been the best for me, the thoughts really circulate on hurting others, why couldnāt they just been about me instead? (I apologize to those currently suffering from self harm ocd) itās gotten to the point where I donāt know if my thoughts are really intrusive now, and it doesnāt help that I get urges to act on these thoughts. Why have I been cursed with such vile thoughts why me why now. The only good news so far is that Iām finally going to see if this is ocd or not and get diagnosed by a psychiatrist once I start college here in a few weeks(Thank gatos for my college has mental health resources) but honestly it just doesnāt really feel like ocd. I donāt know if I feel anxiety because itās not the typical anxiety I feel. While my compulsions are mental itās just wierd. Like Iām worried that ERP wouldnāt work for me. Sometimes I get thoughts like, how do people live without these thoughts? And how do they occupy their time? I know I used to be like other people, yk where I wasnāt worried or concerned because of these thoughts, like yeah Iāve had intrusive thoughts before in the past and they absolutely scared me, but I was just able to get over them. So why now does it feel like i canāt shake them off? Why do they have to show up everyday? And why have I become so apathetic? Like my empathy and sympathy feel like theyāve disappeared? And itās so bad that sometimes I feel like if someone close to me just passed away I would feel nothing. Like when I heard my abuelo had skin cancer I just felt nothing and I was obsessing over the fact that I didnāt. Has anyone ever felt this way? Is it just ocd or something worse?
Does anyone think we are Selfish for worrying so much about our problems. Or is this jus my ocd?
I have this fear of being a psychopath or sociopath. All my life i was able to feel normal emotions like joy, sadness, guilt etc up until now where i suddenly gained this new fear of being a psychopath because i felt emotionally detached from my partner lately and i now feel like i emotionally shut down and like im on autopilot mode. Its like i cant feel anything right now, and to test myself i think of situations in my head that are bad (like someone getting hit by a car) to see if i feel any empathy and it scares me that i sometimes dont. I keep doing this over and over and i cant feel anything, im so scared of being evil or something. It triggers me when i see negative things on social media because im scared i donāt feel anything or not care about it at all. I never thought id be saying this but i WANT to feel sad or upset just so i know im not crazy.
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