Reduce Handwashing time

I have certain “good” numbers and “bad” numbers. The good ones are clean. They feel clean, good, and pure. They’re the numbers I count to in compulsions. Then there’s bad ones. They make me feel dirty and bad, gross. When I see, feel, think of this number I just feel very dirty. Then like I wanna rip my skin off. Get rid of whatever the number was related to. I wanna puke and cry. I was wondering if anyone else is like this? This also happens with colors. But mainly with numbers. Any tips on how to deal with it? I need to figure out how to cope. I saw and heard the number so many times today. I feel so gross.

I’m looking for some help with this, of course OCD themes switch and lately it really is about harming others through contamination. Every time I touch something almost I have constant thoughts “if I don’t do this this means I want to hurt my family or loves one” but the thought feels so real like I want to do it, but obviously I don’t and gives me so much anxiety. Last couple months I was really spending a lot of time washing my hand from counting but now it’s got to the point that I can’t do anything without having thoughts that if I don’t clean or wash myself it means I want to get someone sick. It’s scary and I’m trying to not engage into the thoughts but they keep popping up. Any tips with harm contamination OCD and reducing these crazy thoughts? It almost feels like I want to have these thoughts but really they scare me if that’s makes sense? Any help would be awesome, thanks!!

So I am trying to get help and I have to fill out this Obsessive compulsive inventory and it’s stressing me out so bad - a bulk of the questions are things like washing your hands etc and counting and nothing is specific in any way to the sub type of OCD that I might have it’s causing me to spiral and think that I don’t have OCD. I am so stressed right now. I have a follow up phone call tomorrow and I’m terrified they will say it’s not OCD. I just tested my results and looked online and it says that I don’t have OCD - for example it says you have to have a score above 41 or a mean score of 2.5 on one of the sections which I don’t.