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- MonicaLynn13
- Date posted
- 20w ago
Masking with OCD.
Anyone else so used to making / hiding their OCD, that it’s hard to take it off and actually talk to your therapist about it?
Anyone else so used to making / hiding their OCD, that it’s hard to take it off and actually talk to your therapist about it?
Yeah, I did hide my OCD for a while. I used to have noticeable compulsions, like twitching my head or fidgeting, and anyone paying attention could see it. I remember trying so hard to suppress it at school that by the time I got home, it felt impossible to control. My sibling would sometimes tease me, so I’d end up hiding it at home too. I didn’t talk to my friends about my OCD until earlier this year. Some of them I’ve known for six years, but I’ve been keeping this hidden for three of those. I don't recall discussing it much with my therapist, but I’ve found ways to feel more comfortable talking about it with my peers.
I dont really talk about my ocd to anyone. I have opened up to a couple people, but i never really talk about it mostly because im afraid people will not understand this type of anxiety and people will think im crazy. But it does make me fidget a lot, and although nobody has told me they notice it, i don’t doubt that people around me notice how much i fidget.
Don’t feel bad for having ocd, in the long term you’ll feel proud, several doctors had told me you are a hero, knows what things trigger more Symptoms, change those with things that bring you tranquility, that the best to reduce symptoms, Best wishes
Can OCD make you feel like it’s not really OCD? Like you’re just acting or using it as a coverup to not admit you’re a psychopath?
OCD is so strange because I feel so mentally exhausted 24/7 but i’m so good at masking it that like it’s like i can think double. I’m not sure that makes sense. But i am so used to the OCD thoughts racing through my head that i can respond to my environment whilst completely existing in my head. I can have conversations when intrusive thoughts are taking over my inner dialect. I feel like i am even doubting whether i have OCD and whether it’s all just an excuse. I feel like my rumination hasn’t stopped for the past 3 years. Everything i used to enjoy or look forward to, is now dread and tainted by the thoughts telling me i never knew. I don’t even know what i like or who i am anymore. The thought of getting help and talking through it all scares me because what if i’m invalidated or if i speak about it too much then what if i don’t stop thinking. I’m so exhausted
Hey, this is my first time posting… so I am a little nervous. I have OCD, along with Bipolar 1, and Autism (autism was assessed by a therapist and psychiatrist but not an official diagnosis cause of the cost). I used to have my OCD treated with Effexor until it revealed my Bipolar disorder and instead I can only be on low dose Prozac (alongside other meds for bipolar) One of my biggest and oldest OCD symptoms has been a constant need to confess everything hidden about my life to my parents. It started when I was 15. I suddenly would become so stressed about something I did in the past (usually regarding more private topics, stuff no one wants to talk to their parents about). It would be so bad I would struggle to keep food down if I was fighting those thoughts. Although it’s gotten better, it hasn’t left without leaving me completely exposed, and it still pushes me to want to confess my private life to them. I always think “but X or Y was wrong of me to do, or was private” and then I’d feel like NOT confessing was me “lying by omission.” It’s hard to explain it… but I just wondered if anyone had and advice or just messages of solidarity. Thanks to anyone who read this long message, I appreciate it.
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