When you had your first false memory experience did you think it was real because you didn’t know ocd could do that or did you feel like something didn’t feel right about it and suspect it was ocd?
For me, my false memories began as less imaginations and more so my inability to accurate recall an event and, most importantly, my INTENTIONS in that moment. I began questioning everything I’ve done and whether I did things in good faith or not. I could not look back at a memory without questioning parts of it. I became my own gaslighter. Which is how intrusive thoughts affect us, so I definitely can see the connection between false memories and OCD. I did not know at the time what I was experiencing though, because I didn’t even know what OCD was. But I DID know I was terribly, terribly paranoid.
I had no idea it was ocd or that I even had it. It scared the crap out of me and it still does. It was only after researching “can you do something and block it out” did I come across false memory ocd
I didn’t know it was ocd. I didn’t know that I had ocd. The particular thought stuck with me for months and months, and even though it made no sense, the shame and guilt felt like something I could never get past. After watching a ton of the NOCD q&a steams on YouTube, getting my diagnosis, and doing a couple months of erp, I’m doing significantly better and it’s much easier to identify “ocd” thoughts and not ruminate on them.
That’s kinda my question. All my thoughts feel so realistic and so now I doubt if they are ocd and if I just can’t make my mind up about something and I’m using ocd as an excuse or something idc I feel like this post is word vomit.
Does anyone have any advice for how to know the difference between ocd and real feelings/thoughts? Sometimes an intrusive thought will come in and I immediately know it’s ridiculous and I can just leave it alone and it won’t bother me but other times I really really don’t know. It’s when ocd hijacks and twists my real feelings and thoughts and tries to manipulate me into believing they’re something they’re not or something that doesn’t align with my true morals or intentions. But since it’s twisting and mixing with real feelings I get so confused and scared. Everything gets jumbled and I feel like I can’t trust myself or my own mind. Yet other times and other topics I can laugh off and push away just fine. Make it make sense. And then I start to think well maybe I don’t have ocd at all and I’m just in denial because I don’t want to accept that these scary/concerning things are true about myself. Or maybe that’s just the ocd talking.
I’ve asked this before and got no response but can ocd try to make you feel a certain way that you don’t actually feel? Such as telling you you’re jealous or upset in a situation when you don’t even care or feel that way at all. Can ocd cause you to feel the emotion along with the intrusive thought even though it’s not your true feelings?
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