Seeing other peoples OCD makes me doubt my own?

Ive had POCD for nearly 2 years now. I've seen loads of therapists and gotten better from it. I went a while without feeling horrible, but then in an instant it comes back and then its fully back for ages. I watch OCD videos online a lot because they get recommended to me by youtube. When I see them talking about OCD, if its not related to exactly what Im worrying about or they mention something that doesnt happen for me I start to doubt if I have OCD at all. I also see people who are so obsessed over purely stuff inside their heads. That does happen to a point for me, but when I hear other people talking about it I start thinking that their situation is so much worse and theyre clearly mentally unwell and do have OCD. Its almost like the fact mine isnt worse makes me doubt I have it. My brother and mum have OCD and my dad is very anxious, so I knew from a young age what OCD was. When I started experiencing it myself I immediately on day 1 of worrying thought "is this OCD". There was no moment for me where I didnt consider the fact it was OCD. I know most people have a moment where they find out about OCD, but I didnt have that. I am the one who initially thought to myself that I have OCD, and because of this I think to myself: "what if i latched onto the idea of OCD and have somehow fooled myself and everyone around me including my therapists into believing I have OCD". At the time I was terrified so of course Id want to latch onto OCD to find a reason. So much doubting all the time I just feel my case is different to everyone elses. I know that they say everyone feels like that. Sorry I started by talking about the title of this post but I sorta went on a tangent at the end. Thanks to anyone who read. Good luck with your own OCD

Willow.Treez19

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 38w ago

Overthinking whether or not you have it can also be an ocd symptom, I have ocd and seek therapy on this service and I still often question whether I’m lying to myself or compare my experience to others

Johnny69

Date posted: 38w ago

Its because my situation revolves around a real event as well as the mental stuff. Ive told so many people about it now as a compulsion and everyone tells me Its really not as big a deal as Im making it. Its like it helps for a bit and then Im back to worrying about the same thing Ive already disputed. A lot of people have just stuff in their head. I have too, but Im often able to forget / move on from thoughts because theyre literally just thoughts that mean nothing. When real events are there, that element of it just being in your head isnt a thing. There could be 1,000,000 reasons why said event occured, but nothing can change the fact something happened.

Willow.Treez19

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 38w ago

@Johnny69 What you described definitely sounds like ocd, real event ocd is really hard, my twin brother also has ocd and experiences this as well

Johnny69

Date posted: 38w ago

@Willow.Treez19 - Thanks for the support. I hope your brothers doing well now.

Willow.Treez19

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 38w ago

@Johnny69 I hope you’re doing well also You got this!

Kat_Griffith

Date posted: 38w ago

I feel the same in the aspect that I feel like since I got diagnosed recently my body is trying to convert itself in a “OCD body” or maybe it’s just me noticing things I never did before but I completely think I convinced everyone around me I have OCD when I myself think I don’t if that makes sense.

Johnny69

Date posted: 38w ago

Im not officially diagnosed as the whole thing started around when I was 16 and I started to get help at 17 and they couldnt diagnose me for some reason because I wasnt 18. I think that made it even worse because I have seen therapists about it and they all tell me I have OCD, but Its not official. I get the same thing as well. Its like OCD is a part of my identity. I dont talk about it much when Im out with friends, but among my family when I feel shit I definitely am constantly thinking about OCD. Its a part of my life now and everything triggers it, even stuff unrelated to my theme.

olive444

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 38w ago

The OCD will do this. Trick you into not having OCD in order to convince you that your obsessions are actually real or true. i.e. "BUT I HAVE TO BE THE ONE CASE WHERE THIS ACTUALLY COMES TRUE" or "I am lying to myself!" I have had two different therapists from across the country who are completely unrelated tell me "you have textbook OCD". I have received 3 separate diagnoses, and those thoughts STILL would come up for me. The OCD will never find certainty or feel good about any answers I use the RPM "I will never know if I have ROCD or not" and it helps to embrace uncertainty

geminileo

Date posted: 25w ago

Fear that everyone hates me

Hi all, my ocd has been flaring up lately and I’m not sure why. I think it may be due to stress and anxiety involving school and the hurricanes (I live in Florida) anyways I keep having random intrusive thoughts involving my real event and a lot of false memories are popping up, they feel so real it’s like I can feel everything in them even though I haven’t actually felt them. It’s so weird, like sometimes I will watch a movie and be able to feel the texture of snow or a piece of clothing even though I’ve never felt it before. I have noticed when I get those “phantom” ? touch feelings that they cause a lot of false memory intrusive thoughts. I’ve also been having intrusive thoughts that because no one interacts with my posts on here that everyone hates me and knows about me and thinks I’m horrible and disgusting or that someone is talking about me behind my back and telling people to stay away from me and then I’m a horrible person. I hate OCD so much, I hate that I ruminate constantly on little things and mistakes I’ve made and things I can’t let go. I just hate it so much. Does anyone else struggle with these thoughts or even the “phantom feelings/touches” I’m not sure what to call them sometimes I also get them with certain foods or smells even if I hadn’t had them before or smelt them before. It’s so weird

FairyWithaKnife

Date posted: 22w ago

I just don't know

I've gotten diagnosed with OCD and I'm in therapy. But I'm worried that I don't have OCD/that I got misdiagnosed. And recently I'm worried that I've just gotten myself into a habit of thinking of dirty minded or just plain old terrible things after I see/hear certain things because I feel like I need to prove I have OCD or else I'm faking(sometimes this goes away). Or that I'm just mimicking symptoms of ocd to cope with real problems I may have and that im just really deep into denial. I don't know...I'm just so tired. I mean, what if I really am what I think I am and this is my brains only way of coping? I don't even really feel anything towards most of the thoughts anymore either I just know they go against my values and I don't want them. I don't know if that's because I'm so mentally exhausted, I just don't care, or that the thoughts are true and I'm comfortable with them.

Secretidentity

Date posted: 16w ago

Does any one ever question if their ocd isn’t ocd?

That’s kinda my question. All my thoughts feel so realistic and so now I doubt if they are ocd and if I just can’t make my mind up about something and I’m using ocd as an excuse or something idc I feel like this post is word vomit.

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