Did someone feel like he wants to d!e

@Anonymous Which theme did you have?

@confused writer Suicidal and harm against my family. Deep down I know I don’t want to die, but ocd and intrusive thoughts keep trying to tell me otherwise. It’s hell on earth, What about you?

@Anonymous Suic!dal. How did u feel better?

@confused writer I had very hard discussions with a psychiatrist and therapist and my family. I switched up my meds and just committed to one day at a time. It is so scary. What are you doing?

@Anonymous Idk. Didn’t start medication yet. Doing therapy and trying to survive each day.

@confused writer Perhaps talk to a psychiatrist, they deal with this stuff all day long and can help you. What are some of your intrusive thoughts?

@Anonymous That I just want to do it. It’s very hard. Gets me very uneasy all day long. And sometimes I just feel like it’s real and I’m going to, and trying not it. What about you?

@confused writer Pretty much the same, it’s horrible and completely takes over life. I am trying really hard not to ruminate on the thoughts and to just let them occur.

@Anonymous What do you take? Does it help you?

@confused writer Luvox and when it really horrible a low does of Klonopin

@Anonymous And it helps?

@confused writer It does! Are you feeling any better today?

@Anonymous Yes. Scared from tomorrow. Hbu?

@confused writer Definitely an improvement from yesterday, I am able to distinguish the thoughts a lot more clearer. Still a lot of work to do, but progress is a good thing!

@Anonymous Yes. Same. But the problem is I still have that want to d!e feeling when I think about it. Idk maybe I’m hard on myself

@Hange Did u get over it?

@confused writer Being honest, sometimes it got over, sometimes it’s still here (I’m now in what I think it’s an episode), but I’m not diagnosed so I cant speak so confident about it But, you need to keep going, you need to find a way of surviving, it has helped me a lot I sincerely wish you no more bad days, you can do it! ✨

@Hange What theme do you have?

@confused writer Im not diagnosed but I think I suffer ZOCD and sexual ocd :( I think suffer contamination ocd too but that doesn’t afect me to that point

@confused writer And false memories and real events

@Hange you got this.

@confused writer Thanks! You too!! :D

@In the twilight zone My husband and mom. But I feel like sometimes it’s not enough for me to be happy 🥲🥲

@confused writer What’s going on with your husband and mom?

@confused writer We have to learn what makes us happy again because no one else can do it but us .. unfortunately no one else cares

@In the twilight zone They are great. I’m really struggling with finding what makes me happy those days. Trying my best tho. What theme do you have?

@confused writer What did you used to love doing? My themes are harm, driving symmetry, magical thinking

@In the twilight zone Being with friends. Netflix. Being with my husband. Dancing. Content creation.