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STD contamination fears
Does anyone else have really bad contamination OCD surrounding stds? Because I can hardly find anything about it on here.
Does anyone else have really bad contamination OCD surrounding stds? Because I can hardly find anything about it on here.
I get very worried about this and my partner will get upset sometimes cause we've been together for 7 yrs and doesn't understand why I would be scared if I'm not cheating. I can get a test and it say negative and I'll just assume the virus or whatever just isn't detectible yet and I'll probably be positive in a few months. I've done this a lot with HIV and hepatitis. I'm still not sure I don't have them but I literally just got tested a week ago š„“ also I work in a dental office and see blood all the time so that def doesn't help.
@_sarah_ I relate to this so much! My partner and I have been together for 6 years and I still struggle with std fears and chronic testing.
That is my biggest fear, I canāt tell you how many hiv tests Iāve done within a year for the most surreal reasons I never seem to accept that I donāt have it and stop panicking
Oh yeah- that was a big one for me. Paranoid about every ingrown hair. Terrified of sleeping with anybody who had slept with anybody else. It significantly impacted my relationships and how I chose a partner. Itās a tough one to cope with.
This is a big part of my contamination OCD. Itās been hard dating. I took some time off from dating when my OCD was at its peak. I havenāt slept with a new person in 6 years, itās tough to explain to my friends why I havenāt been dating. Iāve been slowly getting back on the apps though after doing exposure therapy
Hi everyone, I wanted to reach out to see if anyone else has experienced something similar with OCD and intrusive thoughts. Iāve been struggling during moments of intimacy because intrusive thoughts, particularly ones related to POCD, feel so āstickyāālike theyāre all I can picture. Even though I really want the thoughts to go away, they persist, and Iāve been trying not to avoid intimacy because of them. However, that makes me feel like Iām somehow āenjoyingā the thoughts or images, which I really dislike. Itās like my brain is playing this awful trick, and itās leaving me feeling confused and gross. I guess Iām supposed to not let the thoughts bother me and continue as if nothingās wrong, but Iām scared that by doing so, Iām almost training myself to get off to them or something. This fear makes it so hard to trust myself in those moments, and itās been overwhelming. If anyone else has been through this, how do you handle it?
Dose anyone else experience that your OCD calms down and goes to the back of your mind during- feels almost safe and unaware of it but as soon as it's over and youve calmed down all the intrusive thoughts come rushing back 10x worse? I've had really awful panic attacks because of it the past two nights and it's exhausting I haven't been with another person in over a year because of how bad it was after and not being able to explain it properly to partners "no I'm not crying because of you" "no you didn't do anything wrong" I feel insane- like I'll never be able to have a normal functioning sexual time alone or with others do to it the compulsions that come with it are exhausting it's like the need to cleanse myself of filth like I'm disgusting and horrible until there's no traces I did anything in the first place I'm just so tired dose anyone have any tips of how to work through this- or at least be able to enjoy myself without crying afterwords? I have no idea what subtype this would even entail? I'm going to go with contamination I guess ?
Iāve been feeling the urge to avoid intimacy or purposefully engage (for reassurance that I wonāt give into a compulsion) because of intrusive thoughts and fear that Iāll ācheck/testā my reactions. My OCD is making me so scared that Iāll purposefully think of a child and try to see if I like it. Itās so complicated but I guess Iām mentally checking if I would mentally check during intimacy. Iāve even envisioned myself checking and itās making me so nauseous. I know itās a compulsion like any other but the sound of ātouching yourself to the thought of a childā sounds atrocious and vile. Iām terrified Iāll automatically start checking next time I am being intimate. I truly feel so worried. If anyone has gone through something similar, Iād appreciate hearing your experience. Or if anyone has any advice?
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