does this even make any sense

Thank you!! Sometimes I worry that I'm only doing the tapping thing because I think I have OCD, and I'm really concerned about the religious thoughts because I don't know if I am actually behaving immorally😭from a non religious perspective, does this seem like I'm doing something wrong? Thank you for your response :)

@Anonymous You’re not doing something wrong , do not blame yourself I know it’s so hard to think it’s not us because we’re so scared we are going to cause these bad things on other people But I really get you with the having to repeat phrases and tapping a certain amount of times Because even for me I’m repeating in my head like “please nothing bad,please nothing bad” So it’s very similar , you’re not alone

@Anonymous Honey you aren't behaving immorally. I want to assure you that there is no need to repeat your prayers so that God will hear you or listen to you. If there is a God, then they will hear you even if you prayed once. And they certainly wouldn't get offended if you don't repeat your prayers. The concept of God is in fact someone almighty who would not get nervous, bothered, angry or offended by our actions. They are kind and forgiving and will do anything for the person who is pure and kind.

@ambermayx That's exactly me too!! I had just repeated that over and over again whilst praying. I'm so scared because I used to have a good relationship with God and just pray at night but now as soon as I come home I can't give into any 'material things' 8 I have to pray that my parents don't get cancer and then I have to go down and touch the floor next to a picture of God twice whilst praying in my head (and my parents get really confused why I'm tapping the floor) and when I want to eat somethibg like chocolate my brain Listerlaly says no you'll cause something bad because it's materialstic and that's ignorance in Hinduism

@ambermayx And the only way I get through is by thinking something like 'i promise to god to eat this chocolate' so I can and then I do but .. I'm so scared that I'm causing something bad to happen when I break the promise e.g if I forgettohave chocolaye or something. For example today I said 5 times because otherwise I could be praying all night but it accidentally went to 6 and I feel like my ignrknace is so so bad. Sorry for the long paragraph!!

@Anonymous I’m so sorry you’re going through this, it sounds exhausting For me aswell it’s so hard to get these horrible thoughts to go away like it just feels like it’s constantly there and then I have to tap my head again and again and again just throughout my day like leave me alone!! I also get the chocolate thing but with other things like I can’t wear something or do something otherwise something bad will happen And then it’s a cycle of having to tap my head a certain amount of times

@Nilii Thank you!! Honestly this is really helpful. In my religion materialisfic things are ignorance and I went though a whole phase where I couldn't wear nice clothes jewellery nice food or even study because I thought all these things would cause something bad to happen If I couldn't give them up if my brain told me to. And I don't even know if it's OCD or I actuwlly should be giving it up. I just feel so bad seeing a picture of God and not praying immediately for my families safety it's like I'm just letting them be unsafe

@ambermayx Yess. I'm so sorry your going through this!! I feel like it's so difficult to get out especially when your brain tells you something is wrong and something is right. I feel like if my OCD wasn't rooted around religion (like nice clothes actually being materialistic and therefore ignorance in Hinduism) I could actually come out of it but my brain just tells me I'm doing something bad if I try since everything is actually part of religion. I wish I wasn't doing anything wrong

@Anonymous You’re not alone!! I feel bad if I don’t do compulsions for my family members to be safe or my pets at night or whenever my ocd tells me I have to do something so they are safe

@ambermayx Thank youu, it's so good to know that it's a common experience to do things in order to keep others safe- it makes me feel like it's OCD and there's no real harm. I really hope you get better too :) I heard ERP works amazingly and it defo helped get over some other types I may have had

@Anonymous I really want to try erp and cbt when I get a therapist

This is exactly something which I would think!! I don't know if I have OCD though

@Anonymous Me either being undiagnosed doesn’t invalidate our experiences

@suspectedocd3!!R So true!! Sometimes I just feel like Im faking it though and I'm just doing it because I want to believe I have OCD or else I actually am doing something wrong and I actually am causing bad things to happen by not taking my shoes off to quickly pray even though I'm running late to school 😭😭

@Anonymous That’s just the little monster in our head

Thank you so so much. I was wondering if this was a religious OCD thing :) sometimes I hope it's OCD because I don't want to actually be doing something wrong

Also I'm so sorry you went through that!! It must have been really difficult :(