Laughing at things I shouldn’t be laughing at.

I saw a video where a kid was trick or treating and the dude filming opened the door and pulled out a knife on him and said “get away from here. quick.” and it was in response to a trend asking users to quote the tweet with the funniest videos that live in their head rent free. I laughed and thought it was funny because it was so random, but then I saw the comments like “that was so disturbing, what’s wrong with everyone who’s laughing at this?” and I totally agree. I feel horrible for laughing. It was just so random and it was posted in the context of being something funny. I wouldn’t ever condone doing that in real life, but with the internet it feels like a barrier and honestly I’m so desensitized to seeing stuff like that. I want to completely get off the internet because in reality that WAS disturbing and completely fvckd up and I wouldn’t be laughing if someone did that to my niece. I feel horrible. Am I horrible person? I don’t even want to think about it anymore. I deadass just don’t want to be here tbh and I don’t think anybody cares if I am here anyways so ✌🏽

Username: ninjastoneninjastone

Date posted: 36w ago

You don't have to judge yourself. I find for me that I laugh and smile a lot. I suffer from a lot of facial tension. I'm not laughing / smiling bc I'm happy. Its a fear response. It wasn't safe for me growing up to look scared so sometimes I have an opposite seeming reaction, but deep down I actually am coping with feeling scared. I don't judge you at all. 💚Hope this helps.

Username: whatever.whatever.

Date posted: 36w ago

Like I’m 20. It was different when I was in middle school and I found shit like this funny but reality is hitting me harder every day and making aware of how ugly I can be on the inside. I feel horrible for laughing. Like why am I even alive. There’s no hope for me, huh?

Username: yagoodsisnaniyagoodsisnani

Date posted: 36w ago

@whatever. facts this happens to me alll the time. i get scared that imma enjoy seeing it i guess? or get desensitized to it?

Username: DelaneyDelaney

Date posted: 36w ago

Remember, your thoughts aren’t what make you a good or bad person, your behavior is. Obviously you wouldn’t pull a knife on a kid in real life, since you’re so distressed by the idea of someone doing it in real life. Your response to a video online does not make you a bad person.

Username: whatever.whatever.

Date posted: 36w ago

@Delaney thank you so much 🥹🥰

Username: Cinnamoroll Cinnamoroll

Date posted: 36w ago

Everyone here has commented great things!! I would just like to add that you were set up to respond a certain way BECAUSE of the context provided (the “funniest videos” tweet). Whether you agreed with it or not, the shock factor of the video combined with that context was more likely to make you laugh than not.

Username: whatever.whatever.

Date posted: 36w ago

@Cinnamoroll so true, thank you for commenting <3

Username: King silly

Date posted: 21w ago

Is this a thing?

I’m worried I’m an actual horrible person and using these as excuses…. I know nobody will understand this and will get confused but I can’t keep pretending everything is okay anymore:( Basically, for a long time, I would think “oh this is wrong, I shouldn’t do it” then a few months later I would be doing that thing? Like this was forever ago but I think about it, how did I not know things were bad when I thought that way? I mean I knew in reality I never actually knew what was okay and what wasn’t okay, and I only went off of what people told me, or the kind of people I was around 11-16 .. I regret these actions and I always end up crying, how did I not know??… I know I didn’t know but … I don’t know…

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Username: King silly

Date posted: 21w ago

My past

I’ve done many things in my past that I regret heavily, and I can’t get over it.. I really can’t no matter what.. One being that when I was 14, I was making inappropriate comments and jokes to my friends/partners who were 1-2 years younger than me, and I feel so disgusted that I did this, why did I do this, I’m a horrible person, I don’t deserve anything…. Important to note: yes, at the time I didn’t know any better, I really didn’t, i remember it being really normalized, NOT an excuse but an explanation.. but, I regret being that way so badly, because it’s so gross I can’t believe I was so stupid… and I still see kids nowadays make jokes and comments to their friends/partners like this?? Why is it still normalized…

Username: My OCD Academia

Date posted: 20w ago

Feeling Down & Ashamed

Was watching a YouTube video and the person talked about school shootings & how people are crazy. I immediately got distressed thinking “what if i’m crazy, what if I do something as horrible as that” and got so many scary intrusive thoughts after. I feel so ashamed and i feel like a terrible person for these thoughts and some days I want to burst out crying but no tears come out, just a lot of panic & worry. I feel so shameful. And to make matters worse, later that day I saw this funny news for a video game and I didn’t remember how to spell it correctly and when I pressed search, I saw a photo of a bullet & that made me feel so damn scared. Like what if I intentionally searched for it even though I was expecting a video game. Then I started thinking about how on the news they always claim the mass shooters would be obsessed with firearms and It just made my OCD that much worse. Then my OCD goes into my past to find “evidence” that could prove I’m a horrible person that would do something like that. I can’t get these intrusive thoughts and images out and I hate it. I hate violence. I’ve talked to my therapist over and over about how I feel like this horrible person and I give her a list of all the things that I’ve done wrong and to her, she knows that it’s OCD. I would never intentionally physically harm anyone. The only time I would get into a physical confrontation is to defend myself or loved ones. I just feel like I’m going crazy

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