Erp

Does it happen after erp and finds out that u re not what your ocd said still feel the sadness and depression ?

You get exposed to what triggers you and you practice reacting differently to your routine compulsions in response to the stress.

So if personal failures trigger me I will have to do things that I consider personal failures

I felt all my exposures were making me a bad person. No matter what they were. But the issue is that many things we think are “personal failures” are not actually wrong at all. Just being human. Or just reality being reality. And shared responsibility with others (instead of shouldering everything yourself, like many of us tend to do) The point of ERP is to help you think realistically about yourself again. So where you think “I will have to go fail at things” we will probably see these things as not nearly as bad as you think they are. Try and trust the therapists and what they ask you to do (they’ll probably do it with you, if it goes the same as my ERP) instead of your ocd judgements about yourself. Because I can 100% say that you are way too hard on yourself. Also try not to think too much about what they will ask you to do. It’ll only make you more anxious and it’s not certain what you have to do yet. Also know that you are always in control. They won’t force you to do anything. Though I’d advise you to dive in and do it all, because with that attitude you can recover in the best way. I was terrified to start ERP because I was sure they were going to ask me to stick my hand in a toilet. They never did. And in the last session I MYSELF suggested we do it, as a symbol of how far I’d come. :) You don’t have the experience of ERP working yet. But when you do, you’ll see how much relief you can get from ocd. Good luck!