- Username
- freshpanda
- Date posted
- 46w ago
i feel so damn weird
nothing feels real right now? and i’m not anxious when the intrusive thoughts come. does this mean i am okay with them? or i agree with them? it feels like im changing.. i don’t want this
- Username
- CinnaCinna
- Date posted
- 46w ago
I know exactly how you feel, and I don’t know this for sure!! (Im not a professional) But I don’t think it means you agree with them? It could mean that you’re learning to ignore them, or if you mean numb then I’m not sure!!
- Username
- AnonymousAnonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 46w ago
Thats a super common feeling!! Its called the backdoor spike! It actually means that you are getting better and the thoughts just don’t bother you as much anymore! It can make you anxious because you aren’t as affected by them and you wonder why. But congrats this is a great sign in your recovery!!
- Username
- freshpandafreshpanda
- Date posted
- 46w ago
@Anonymous ohh thank you! how can i deal with the back door spike in a good way?
- Username
- AnonymousAnonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 46w ago
@cyndi🫶 I usually say to myself “ooh im not as anxious this is proof im getting better!” And if i feel worried about not being as anxious I kind of sit with that discomfort and remind myself that if OCD is not worried about the original thoughts its gonna latch onto not being worried- its so sneaky! I try my best to laugh it off and focus on it being a sign that Im improving! Your hard work is paying off!
- Username
- freshpandafreshpanda
- Date posted
- 46w ago
@Anonymous ohh okay! thank you :) it’s good to know this feeling has a name. it’s just so weird because i used to have full on panic attacks due to these thoughts and now it’s just a lil bit of discomfort but mostly just calm. but thank you anyway :)
- Username
- AnonymousAnonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 46w ago
@cyndi🫶 Yes its soooo weird but I promise you’ll get used to it!!
- Username
- 🌊☀️ℛℴ𝓂𝒶𝓃ℯℯ☀️🌊🌊☀️ℛℴ𝓂𝒶𝓃ℯℯ☀️🌊
- Date posted
- 10w ago
I know this is late but I'm going through this too it's scary
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- BB1224
- Date posted
- 24w ago
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My obsessions have subsided but now I feel off, like I should be thinking about something. Like I don’t have any of those bad thoughts right now and it feels so weird to not be stressed out. I’m very confused
- Username
- kenzieisfound
- Date posted
- 22w ago
does anyone else deal with this?
i could be fine one day and then all of a sudden go into this long period that lasts a few days, sometimes even weeks where i feel so disconnected from everyone and everything. i will be talking to my boyfriend and think to myself “ is this really my boyfriend do i even like him “ or i’ll look at my family and be like “ is this really my family “, i feel so out of touch with reality and it is so scary. things look distorted, i feel like i am behind myself 24/7, like i am watching myself through a movie or something. it is so scary and i feel like there’s something wrong with me, and what sucks is i cant even explain what i feel, and i feel extremely alone. my birthday is coming up and i feel like i wont even be able to have fun because i will feel so weird and not present at all, i dont know what to do and i will feel this way out of nowhere. some days its worse than others, idk i feel like im genuinely losing my mind or that im gonna lose my mind and go crazy. is this normal?
- Username
- anonymous_2103
- Date posted
- 16w ago
am i the only one?
recently my intrusive thoughts haven’t been bothering me much, unless i’m busy doing nothing. i suffer from SO-OCD. whenever i think yes, these thoughts don’t bother me anymore, i’m doing great, i then work myself up like ‘well your thoughts are obviously true then otherwise they would make you upset and uncomfortable’. when i get the thoughts they do still make me feel this way but also not as strong. I do then panic and think i’m something i’m not, despite knowing the truth. also anyone know why they get worse when i’m bored or not doing anything? 😢
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