savannah_frame

Date posted: 1y ago

i’m really scared can someone talk to me :(

i can’t stop having these thoughts it’s been taking over the past few days and i think i’m having an anxiety attack right now i have these thoughts “what if i don’t make this through this is like an everyday thing”, “what if i hurt myself or what if i want to do it” or it’s like “what if i go grab a knife and do something” and it scares me and it gives me anxiety and i’m scared i just want this to go away i have my thoughts telling me all of this my dad was saying to take me to the hospital if they get worse i didn’t go today because i didn’t want to but it’s 8 pm here and i think i might ask if i could go tomorrow i’m just so tired i want a therapist to talk to right now but my parents are low on money until they get paid on friday and my dad was gonna see if we go to the hospital because they can just get billed it’s like if i get reassurance nothing helps and even if i have a distraction nothing helps it’s like my thoughts continue and it makes me forget things

Suicidal OCD

kathryn.graceee

Date posted: 1y ago

*First: coming on here for a support and outlet is an amazing step and recognizing it’s OCD and not your own desires can be really helpful* I was just experiencing bad suicidal obsessions and self harm thoughts where I considered hospitalization 2 days ago. 🤍 I’ve been to the hospital before (lived at home with parents) and this time I live on my own and would have to pay for it so hospitalization was my last option. What I did was immediately contact someone - my roommate and fiancé - and they worked out a plan to be by me, hold me, stay in the room with me as their schedules and time allowed. It didn’t feel like I was being watched in a bad way, it was just the comfort of somone else so that I couldn’t act on any thoughts. Even just talking to them about things distracted me for a bit. I felt safe, like they were able to be with me until my thoughts passed and saying my thoughts and fears out loud and crying about it helped. Just being able to cry about the fear of having those thoughts really put identity and power in my hands over my minds. And being able to recognize it as an OCD experience rather than myself really helped. You’ll get through these to the other side!

savannah_frame

Date posted: 1y ago

@kathryn.graceee it’s so hard like it’s starting to disturb my sleeping :(

secretlyobse...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Me and my friend talk about this a lot if you want to join our chat on Snapchat! @jenna.evans17

savannah_frame

Date posted: 1y ago

@secretlyobsessed2012 thank uuu

savannah_frame

Date posted: 1y ago

@secretlyobsessed2012 added

Courtneyxh

Date posted: 1y ago

@savannah_frame There’s a free app called Meetup App and they’re OCD virtual meetings every Sunday via ZOOM. There’s a whole community of us! You’re never alone.

chelsea94

Date posted: 1y ago

I’m sorry your going through this I go through this a lot and I did the last few days and it’s awful you can do this xx

savannah_frame

Date posted: 1y ago

@chelsea94 do u have insta?? i need to talk to someone :(

chelsea94

Date posted: 1y ago

@savannah_frame I do what’s yours x

savannah_frame

Date posted: 1y ago

@chelsea94 savannah_frame

chelsea94

Date posted: 1y ago

@savannah_frame I’ve followed you need to follow back

proudmommy

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

I get this theme on and off. It's extremely hard. I understand. I'm trying to not trigger you, but what I was told by phyche and a mental health facility that wouldn't take me btw because once I started explaining they said it's ocd. If you're just having the thoughts and their causing anxiety you don't want to, but scared you will. It's OCD. Trigger warning; If you start to make a plan, call 911. Exposures help. Download dare app, YouTube, and even tiktoc have helpful videos. Just know we all understand in here and most are currently or have gone through this theme.

Courtneyxh

Date posted: 1y ago

OCD will make you feel extremely scared but you cannot let it. Recently My OCD started getting “loud” again after along time with it being barely noticeable! The more you’re afraid, the more it pops back up like an annoying little sibling back to annoy ya! Do not be afraid and it will start getting more quiet! You got this, we’re all in this together!

savannah_frame

Date posted: 1y ago

@Courtneyxh yes it keeps happening :( is there anyway u have insta or tik tok to talk about it?

cows12465

Date posted: 25w ago

someone w suicidal ocd respond please!

This theme always hits me the worst. It causes the most anxiety and panic. And when i’m finally doing good again it all spirals back. my panic attacks are unreal again. sometimes i get so bad my Xanax won’t even stop the anxiety. These thoughts scare the living shit out of me and cause me to have terrible depression. Recently they have been back. What if this what if that, and sometimes they aren’t even what ifs, it’s more like a demand and they terrifies me. I’ve once again gave into my compulsions and put anything and everything that cause me anxiety into my kitchen so i can feel safe. This theme scares me because it makes me feel like i want to do it or i am going to do it when i don’t. These thoughts consume me. They even say “well do you wanna live like this what if it is the easier way out”. I don’t want to hurt myself and i’m truly a happy person i’m just not understanding these thoughts and why they cause me this much pain. I’m tired if the constant panic attacks and freaking out because of it. My mind goes “what if you have ideation and not OCD”when i clearly have been diagnosed with it. I just need tips and advice i don’t want to live like this forever i’m only 17.

alondrahuaman

Date posted: 23w ago

I am so scared and alone.

Hi everyone. So recently I have been feeling so scared and paranoid of going crazy. I am terrified of i will go crazy and turn schizo. I’m so hyper aware of everything. My mind convinces me that I will end up like this but I really don’t want to.It’s my biggest fear and I think abt it almost everyday and I can’t handle it anymore. I just want to be ok. I have told my parents this and they say it’s all in my head and just laugh at me. I know it’s in my head but I physically feel sick to my stomach being constantly scared. Please someone help me please please. Thank you.

BeeCee87

Date posted: 12w ago

Intrusive thoughts Help.

I’m having a very bad evening with my intrusive thoughts. I was doing really good dealing with them but tonight one hit me hard. I’ve been having a lot of different intrusive thoughts but I’ll have one occasionally about hurting my mom or my dog who I love and they’re the only family I have in my life. They’re my world. I was helping my mom put away the dishes and I had the big kitchen knife in my hand and my intrusive thought was you could stab your mom. And then my brain said I had a twitch in my hand and that meant I wanted to do it. Let me just say that I wouldn’t hurt a fly. I actually caught a fly in a glass and put it outside instead of killing it this evening before this intrusive thought happened. I’m such a gentle and compassionate and caring person and these thoughts instantly cause me to have a panic attack. And I have no one to talk to them about. I know they’re hard for my mom to hear and I don’t want to be any more of a burden than I already am. I do desperately want to tell her and have her reassure me that I’m not crazy or a psycho. Then my thoughts wander to if your hand did flinch could you be a psychopath. Is hurting someone in you. I know it’s not but I feel like my mind is out to get me and hurt me. I’m working so hard and I thought I was doing so good but I need to know why I have these thoughts. They’re not ok. I need someone to help me make sense of why. I know we aren’t supposed to ruminate but I shouldn’t have thoughts like this about people I love and care about the most in the world.

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