- Username
- bm111111
- Date posted
- 48w ago
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I genuinely can't stand my life any longer. I just wanted it all to end
I genuinely can't stand my life any longer. I just wanted it all to end
It won't feel like this forever, things always change in life. I'm sorry to hear you're going through this right now, take care
It gets better. Trust me. Iām having a bad day myself today with OCD. It all feels so real and true but I know it will get better it always does. Sit with anxiety sit with the uncomfortable feelings. Donāt engage in any compulsions I know itās easier said than done but it is the way out of all of this
I've been where you are many times in the past, and probably will again sometime in the future. But it's true, things will get better; probably not in the short-run, if I'm honest, and probably not in the long-run either, but they will in the medium-run, and for now, that's enough for me. (I actually stole that from John Green who also has OCD. I recommend watching his videos on his Blog Brothers YouTube channel if you haven't already. He's actually helped me a lot). I also recommend getting an animal companion if you can and praying if you can, since both of those things have helped me a lot too, not necessarily with OCD but with coping.
hey there, i'm really sorry to hear you're feeling this way. it sounds incredibly tough, and i want you to know that you're not alone in this struggle. i've been there too, and it's okay to feel overwhelmed. have you heard about "unstuck"? it's an ai-powered therapy tool for ocd that i've been using for the past month and it's really made a difference for me. a fellow forum member mentioned it, and i just wish i'd known about it sooner. might be worth a look for you too. hang in there. š
im just living day by day. iāve stopped doing the things i used to like doing because i donāt want to ruin them. i dont want my favourite music, movies, shows and hobbies to be tainted with anxiety and my own thoughts. im a shell of who i used to be and if i had the choice iād do nothing. at this point iām living to cover up my emotions. its even harder because iām not actually diagnosed since i dont think i could handle telling my parents about whatās wrong with me. i have a lot of the symptoms and iāve had them since i was quite young (16 now) and it just hasnāt been getting better, im just better at hiding it now. i dont want to bother my boyfriend or parents with my issues so i have to deal with everything myself. i donāt find anything fun anymore and i want to die, i have nothing to live for and i quite simply want it to end. i always think it canāt get worse but i fall deeper into my sadness and me saying iām alright to people is a lie. i feel so incredibly trapped i donāt know what to do with myself anymore.
just venting. tw for SH. too lazy to type everything. genuinely just tired. I donāt want replies. the end is somewhat beginning to be appealing. maybe if I do it, they will care. Iāll be pissed if they do. fuck off, you didnāt know me, you have no right to care if I go. I was always in the background. all of a sudden I will matter for a few moments, and what for? donāt even try to give compliments to who I was. you didnāt know me. itās a shame I thought of a future. a non realistic one. I only felt comfort in my imaginary world. hopefully there is another life. a better world. I think I will rest now. good night.
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