I don't think I experience intrusive thoughs anymore, just the constant feeling that my fear it's true, every though I have doesn't seem egodistonic, I just react like it's the truth, and I don't want it to be but it's not like I have a choice
Me too đ
For real? What theme do you have?
@Nicolas:) Hocd
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Yeah, I been diagnoze, but it seems like I lie to get it or something like that
@Anonymous - She believes is the OCD process, but I don't
@Anonymous - I just feel like I know this is me deep down, and just don't wanna deal with it, almost every guy I see seems atractive now
@Nicolas:) âAlmost every guy seems attractive nowâ. Seems like the hallmarks of OCD. Thinking you find âmostâ guys you see attractive isnât realistic⌠Even if you were gay, I doubt youâd find most men attractive, maybe some here and there. OCD is heightening attractions and making it feel real. Also, the lack of anxiety you mention in previous posts, doesnât indicate you are gay, maybe backdoor spike? If I have less anxiety, I think it must be real because the anxiety is calmer and means Iâm accepting it, but when Iâm so anxious that I canât even function, I still think the thoughts must be real because why would I react with so much anxietyâ. You canât win with OCD, it will always have an answer for everything and create more and more thoughts to make you think your thoughts are true and you are in denial and donât have OCD. I donât know if you do or donât, either way youâll be okay, but it sounds like OCD.
@Lizzie - Yeah that might be right, but then almost at all moment, I'm feeling like I'm just in denial, and I can't never say I'm straight withouth feeling there's something wrong with it or that it just isn't true, no distress, sometimes I even feel I'm producing the distress on porpuse just to fit with the OCD profile
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But I have done treatment, I just had this for a long time now
How do I stop letting my intrusive thoughts control me? Ive been having them for almost a year, once I graduated, become more isolated and lost more friends they've become worse. I feel like when I had friends and was still going to school they weren't as bad probably because I was living more so I didn't take them as seriously. But now that Im home all day and alone they've gotten worse and it feels like they're starting to control my life. Theres times where Im on social media and eventually I forget about them but then when I realize I forgot about them they come back. Sometimes the thought just lingers it doesn't even just pop in my head and go away. I can't tell anyone in my family because they'd judge me for the thoughts and they don't really believe in mental illnesses. I also sometimes think of what other people may think of me if they knew the thoughts I had and it makes it worse. How do I stop letting these thoughts control/trigger me and stop reacting or feeling some type of way about them.
I would love to have some insight in this in general I deal with thoughts but for me it is the feelings that make ocd this difficult The feeling of disgust for my partner, the feeling of wanting the content of the thoughts , the feeling that this is the real me , the feeling that i am lying to myself and my partner, the loss of attraction,... Because when i write it like that ,that that these are feelings, it seems very much that i am just in drnial and i am bi but i cant love men anymore, or that i am not attracted to my bf and so on
I donât know how to explain this so Iâll do it to the best of my ability. Does anyone experience âco-intrusiveâ thoughts that try to negatively support the initial intrusive thought? Example: Me: âThank God I never acted on (scary intrusive thought) & Iâm getting better!â Intrusive thought: âWhat a shame you didnâtâ These types of things send me into a spiral. It makes me think that it could lead to a desire instead of staying a fear. Like an intrusive disappointment that I didnât follow through with the thought? Itâs been a long fear/obsession & I think my OCD is trying to trick me that the only satisfaction would be to act on the thought. (I know thatâs bs) But IS that why it sends me the negative co-intrusive thoughts? Thatâs the only explanation that makes sense. Then I wonder is it something else? Am I a grenade waiting to explode??? I simply cannot relax in any moment because I think whatâs the use if Iâm just going to (xyz) one day?
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